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finished book 5 of harry potter just now... my concentration had been breaking consistantly because personally I think this book isn't very exciting at all. in fact, all the teenage angst that little harry was experiencing was getting to me. i felt that jkr over did it quite a lot. well, i must say that a number of thing were explained finally however, and that there is quite a bit of plot related to the main theme stringing throughout the whole series. just on its own individual account, i couldn't see a very well fitted, tightly paced plot for book 5 alone. for example: book 1 about the stone, book 2 about the snake terrorizing school, book 3 about sirius on the run, book 4 about the tournament, they each had their own plots but this one... i mean... i guess there is something, but it's not strong enough. rather it's like a prelude to the war that is about to begin. the following is a summary of the plot, read and be spoiled... and if my blog strains your eyes ever more than it already does... I'm sorry but you'll have to live with it ^^;; I might have a new layout by the beginning of July. oh yes, if you don't have the book yet: link to the first few pages. it's currently somewhere on chapter two...

so let's get this out of the way, Sirius Black dies. or supposedly dies. certainly I've been telling myself that he couldn't be dead but everyone else in the book told Harry that he died, and the scene where he died was a bit fishy in my opinion... I could of course be wrong. So far, let's say that he's dead... the order of the phoenix is a secret society under dumbledore's command which forms in resistance to foil the Dark Lord's attempts to take over the world. Harry's parents were in the first order, so were neville's parents and a whole of other people including lupin and sirius and wormtail. harry throughout the book has been having a lot of anguishness sealed inside him... unhappy about many things that was happening to him such as stuck at his uncle and aunt's place for a whole month that summer, not let in on a lot of the stuff the order was doing... ron was made prefect this year (along with hermione) but not him, etc. well you see where this is all going, a lot of yelling and screaming and in fact he blew up at dumbledore near the end of the book --;
meanwhile the ministry of magic was being very uncooperative against their attempts to shed light on voldemort's return. fudge tried to expell Harry, sending in a new defence teacher appointed by the ministry, eventually forced dumbledore out of hogwarts and the foul woman took over as the new headmistress... but rest assured, she did not come to a good end which means that we will have yet ANOTHER defence against the dark arts teacher in the sixth year... i swear that job is cursed. harry was banned by that bitch from playing quidditch at all, though gryffindor still won in the end. ron replaced oliver wood as keeper this year, he was horrible at the beginning but turned out to grab them the crucial win that landed them the cup. after harry, george and fred's ban from the team, ginny replaced him as the new seeker, though of course we all know harry will be back next year. ginny said she will try out for chaser then. this is also the year of their OWLs and career advising: harry said he wants to be an auror and the bitch woman told him he has as much chance of becoming an auror as Dumbledore returning to the school. McGonagall snaps in return: a very good chance then! in deed, dumbledore did return ^^;;
harry... oh can i say that he failed his history of magic and divination OWLs... results are not due back until July (reminds anyone of APs back in high school?) but just from the way he performed... i'm sure he got the top grade on defense against dark arts though. throughout the book harry was having dreams of walking down a long corridor which happened to be some obscure place in the ministry of magic, but it wasn't really him walking down, it was his mind overlapping with voldemorts, and voldemort was trying to lure him there the whole time. at last, he made harry dream that sirius was there and being tortured which drew harry there as he had planned... the members of the order pop up to save harry and this is where sirius fell... on a more interesting note, both dumbledore and harry seemed rather scary in some of the scenes here... harry tried a crucio curse on the woman who zapped sirius (same woman who tortured neville's parents to insanity)... and all this time voldemort was trying to use harry to get something for him, an orb that contains the record of a prophecy made 16 years ago about the two of them... a boy borned at the end of July from parents who have thrice defied him will be marked as his equal and the only one who can defeat him. and one of them will have to die, one or the other in the end. so is that enough of a summary? I think I wrote quite a lot for my usual standards, haven't I? If you have read the spoilers and are now crying about it... it is not my fault: I have warned you.



blog time. it's june 21 and the event of the day is that harry potter book 5 is out. yes i bought it. it is an icky nasty rainy day in new york city (and NJ state), i like rainy weather but i don't like it when i'm getting soaked in the rain. let's start with my first mistake: did not bring umbrella. today, I went to the Mitsuwa mall in new jersey with my friends: tomoe, shishio, rwen and her sisters. it's a nice large japanese mall about an hr from port authority if you take the shuttle bus. those who live in NJ and go to the kinokuniya there know what I'm talking about. NJ has less sales tax *_* i bought the god child vol 4 and 5 that i have longed for since january.... vol 6 is also out but it was air mail price >.< i'm cheap, i can wait, especially when I've already read juda's kiss. the cover is the golden Cain image that I used on the metropolis god child layout.
anyway, after eating lunch at Mitsuwa (*_* @ okonomiyaki shop) we went back to times square and was caught in the rain when it was pouring. i sadly have on my sandals and my feet were numb by the time i got home. (actually it was numb about 5 minutes into the walking)... but we dedicated souls (6 ppl under 4 umbrellas) marched from port authority to the 49 st/5 ave barnes&nobles and grabbed ourselves copies of the order of the phoenix. don't ask me how it is, i'm on page 11~ but you can be sure of one thing: no RO for me tonight ^^;;;; however I'd like to clear up one thing, I love harry potter, but lord of the rings is better.
in conclusion, i have very sore feet



I got into a big fight with my mother because i didn't want to listen to her few hour long lecture anymore, she ended up throwing two books at me, the corner on the spine of which... hit my head. anyway, i won't go into the painful details. one thing i decided last night was to file away silent revolution. i like the story, like the idea behind it but i think it started all wrong. it wasn't anything like this in the beginning, i had something totally different in mind, then it mutated... until now i feel like I had started all wrong. I still like it, maybe people will come after my life, after posing so many questions in the existing chapters... it's just getting cut? I think if everyone wants, I can post a summary of the story that was suppose to happen, which would answer a lot of questions, about Raven, Lilith and the other characters and the story behind the Ancients.
you know, SR is over 40,000 words already, i feel sad putting it away but it's better if I start a new story build on the basis of some of the ideas in SR and be able to constantly update it, than write something every... 6 months. I also made a terrible mistake making the world in SR have both magic and technology, in the end, i couldn't imagine such a world myself... so how can i write about it? every time descriptions came up, i tend to focus on one only and so the setting shifted from very modern to very mystical and back.
I'm naming the new story Evolution and it's set a few hundred years into the future, location is Earth, no spaceships or a galaxy of colonies... maybe a moon colony, i haven't really thought about it yet. anyway, once I get the basic plot all worked out, I will start writing and force myself to at least write for an hr or two every day to make sure this story won't die and will get to the end eventually ^^;;;



utterly depressed. i need 40 more credits... why didn't someone tell me this before >.< summer school here I come.



why am i constantly apologizing for my lack of entries on my blog? it doesn't take much time to rant but the main reason i guess that i haven't been writing is because my life is utterly boring. there really isn't anything for me to report ^^;; I have been trying to look for a job, somewhat half heartedly though since I really don't want to do it x.x (laziness kicks in) instead, i've been spending still a lot of time on RO. i now have 3 characters on the chaos server, well has been 3 for a while but i've mostly been playing 1. on RO, you first start as a novice, and when your novice job lv gets to 10, you can choose your first job: swordsman, mage, archer, merchant, thief or acolyte. when your first job levels to 40, you can sorta "upgrade" to a second job class. swordie -> knight, mage -> wizard, archer -> hunter, merchant -> blacksmith, thief -> assassin, and acolyte -> priest. the three characters that i have are merchant, wizard and thief. my thief is close to becoming assassin and wizard is my main character.
just today, i leveled my merchant, with rwen's help, and got level 10 discount... i can sell cheap stuff now and make profit -> fast money ;_; i maybe the richest of all my friends playing RO, but i am still poor compared to the prices of the items i want.



still haven't told my mother yet ;_; what am I going to do... very depressed... although I had expected this long ago, it's always hard when the matter is pressed to you. I'm so depressed that I want to do some writing or translations. be back later with more ranting.


what an unhappy day. but needless to say, this day would come. I had a good morning, a good afternoon but everything from the evening on was ruined. well the reason is very simple, a letter from school - ie. my grades. very sad day, i am now wondering how long I can hide it from my mom, well good nite.



I don't know really what I wanted to say, I am in a very bad mood right now. honestly my mother is being an annoying bitch. there are a lot of issues that she has with me or that I have with her but I guess RO just did it. the immediate cause is that I've been playing games too much (the two weeks that I came home from school), and the other stuff dates back to... my whole college career to my not liking to go out, to my getting a little overweight, to my stomach problem and not liking to eat vegatables... etc.
what the hell is her problem? She went out saying that was the last thing she was going to say to me, and then came right back and spoke for another 10 minutes. I've been listening to her crap for a full hour. of course she doesn't think it's crap, and got quite emotional, maybe I should feel bad, my mom getting all emotional on me yet I don't feel a thing. What I think is that I should go out and do drugs or get pregnant and maybe then she will understand that the way I am right now is being a very, very good girl.
I really am very unhappy in this house although she says that she has given me a lot... and perhaps with a degree of truth to it, but I really don't ask for very much from them. I don't buy makeup, I don't go party, I don't even buy clothes, so what do they want from me? When I liked anime, she didn't like me watching anime. When I liked mangas, she didn't like me buying mangas, when I liked web designing, she didn't like me spending time on the internet, and now I like games, she doesn't like me spending my time on games... what the fuck does she want from me. and before anime or games, I had other hobbies, which she all rejected, does she fucking know that she had made my life very pale and unhappy? and when I finally find something to decorate it, she takes it away.
she spoke for a little over an hour and all the time in a very loud voice, I couldn't help but wonder if she was thirsty at any point. but I didn't really listen to what she said, all I thought was that I might be going deaf, or at least, I wished that I was deaf so I wouldn't be put through such torture. sorry but I wasn't moved at all. I am very seriously considering showing them what is really bad. she asked me: so do everyone else all play day and night like you do? me: yes they do. she: *pause* you only know to compare yourself with the bad people, why don't you ever look up and compare with the good people? me: you asked me a question and I fucking told you the truth, and then you tell me oh that's because I'm comparing to bad people? do you just want me to say what you want to hear or what?
anyway... on a brighter note, ragnarok hasn't been lagging much lately - last day before pay service begins. rwen paid for my share by credit card since I didn't want my parents to know. today there was only 6000+ people on at one time, and few novices, though still a few. p2p (pay to play) starts tomorrow evening *_* say bye-bye to lag. I won't be playing much anymore or at least not as much since I am forced to get a job to pay for my own rent next year. I have to say though, perhaps it's a big too early for closing beta since the game is still very buggy, there are many problems with it and some of it gravity will have a hard time fixing since it seems like a bug in their basic set up. I have a thief now in addition to the wizard who is on lv42 and will become an assassin soon (i hope). I might really rebuild azura but I only have half a mind to do so, I'm also out of character slots (only 3 and I have a wizard, thief and merchant). ok, long entry, pissy rant, time to go, good night.



ah, what a lazy, irresponsible webmaster i am, leaving my site uncared for, including my blog, but ragnarok online is so addictive *_*. my primary account - Azura the mage is now Azura the Wizard -> see here, he's still a low lv wizard, but a wizard still *_* and my other 2 characters are going well too... at least i think they are x.x;;
i haven't done much, no, but i will...... i promise >.< once i am high enough lv, i will come back >.< ah btw, i think i'm keeping this layout for june also, since i wrote so little in the month of may ^^ i'm not sick of it yet



ok, I must admit that sometimes I am a bit slow. I saw Matrix Reloaded on Friday night, but only now did I suddenly came to the enlightened realization that the whacko French guy was in the women's bathroom because he was hooking up with that cake woman. obviously this wouldn't make sense to people who haven't seen the movie, but until now, I thought he had some weird hobby of using the ladies' room ^^;; it was rather odd: the husband is in the women's bathroom, and the wife goes to the men's bathroom, they are all psychos, half the time I couldn't make out what they were blabbing about. comparing that film to the original matrix, the quality definitely went down. I must say that I think it's better left as it is - the background story that is, without adding to the whole making of the matrix. now I will still go see the third movie just to find out the rest of the story, but I don't have high hopes for it. it was certainly entertaining to watch, but not worth rewatching.
consider this... in the original matrix, morpheus told neo that the actual date was approximately 200 years later than what the matrix projected. in reloaded, the "father of the matrix" old guy said this was version 6 that they are going through, and that zion had already been destroyed and rebuilt again that many times. now tell me... 200 years and you rebuild a civilization 6 times? the old guy can't be wrong, so morpheus is wrong, but that would mean to "overthrow" a fact that was established in the original movie - big no no, scripts should never do that. sequals are only acceptable when they only "add" to the original, and do not "change"... now what can i expect to see in Revolution? "neo, single handedly (literally: raised one hand) defeats the machines and blast them all with a EMP. my friends and I got into a bit of a debate on the way back on what EMP stood for. we never looked up the answer, even now.
sooo.. don't start to think it's so bad now, I mean it's still above average, just that, perhaps I expected better. I didn't regret watching it at least. but in the end, we all know where the budget went. end note: I liked keanu reeves' black asian-styled trench coat, or maybe it wasn't a trench coat, but the long robe that was flying when he fought ^^



ok, i'm back home, and internet!!! got my cable modem today and set it up. i just hope that when my parents see my grades, they won't decide to take it away >.< i also went to the doctors today, said i have a stomach acid overflow problem which causes my very frequent stomach aches at time, that when i'm lying down, the acid flows backwards into my ugh food... what do you call it? the food... cord... yeah... whatever, you know what I mean. anyway, so now i'm taking this acid regulating medicine --;
ragnarok tonite, meanwhile, I'll be playing....... either FFX or warcraft 3, for some reason the Zsnes emulator is not working on this LCD monitor o.o; frequency problem.
I also noticed that some people have complained about that text effect on JNET 7? saying that it was too hard to read, there wouldn't be a problem if they have IE 5.5+, on IE 5 or below, the opacity code doesn't work and it would seem really dark - of course.



ok, the days suck. i had a final today, school is over, moving out tomorrow, currently doing some last minute packing, don't feel like it though, and also doing like a few months worth of laundry... x.x
went out to see matrix reloaded.... in general, it was cool, it was aiming to be "cool"... sometimes too much pointless fighting, sometimes too much big words speeches, over all, i'm very lost. are they trying to say that... the "one" is... the reboot program to the matrix????? that he is the combination of all the glitches in the system? (me: blue screen of death? fatal error?)
the thing that REALLY bugged me was, I actually thought this was the ending, since i heard that revolution was the prequal, I thought reloaded would put an end to the story, but no it didn't. when the "to be concluded" popped onto screen, my reaction was somewhat like while I watched fellowship of the ring: what? it's over? here?
PS. the price of being all carefree right now is major depression later in june when i get my grades mailed to me.



AHAHAHAHA, i haven't posted in a while, have I, even metropolis has been ignored x.x RO is certainly very addictive... while i wait for my SP to regen, i'll post a little about it... i'm on lvl 47 now, my little mage... and stuck in ant hell blasting ants so i can lvl up. i'll make a note when i become a wizard, but i'm still pretty far from it --; RO = no sleeping, no eating, up day and night leveling up...
they also have a bad word system which really sucks, such as "hit it" = bad word (t it), "bash it" = bad word (sh it), cirCUMstances is ALSO a bad word. (me: what the fuck!?)
please forgive this little webmistress. she is not updating her site because she's addicted to an online game.



*sings* oh my little mage... the only spell i lvled up so far is fire and i'm in a fire enemy place >.< so damage is minimal... ah well... wait till i get cold bolt. i guess there are many lvl 30s ppl but already considerably/proportionally less than newbies... wait till i get to 40s, then there'll really be few ppl, but all the higher level ppl are elsewhere on harder maps or quests... i think by the 70s or 80s... ppl r practically extinct x.x well almost... not that there aren't any, i wonder if there'll be level 90 ppl around soon

RO is definitely worth obsessing over. almost the whole met crew is on it now ^^ me, rwen, faith, kinael, maddie, hannah... nemesis got us all into it *_* well, we should form a metropolis guild ^^ this is my 4th day i think, maybe 5th, and i'm a lvl 32 mage already x.x;;; the hours i put into this. i think shishio-san might start playing over the summer too, then we'd have a kenshin gumi gang.
er, because of RO, even though i'm online, it's as if i'm not on x.x;; i haven't payed any attention to my site or the board in the last 48 hrs. maybe i shouldn't have to. who said i must update every week anyway? I have a life! (yeah, that life = RO)
anyway, i got a bad stomach ache again this morning -> indigestion. happens to me a lot. i knocked on rwen's door for medicine, took a short walk, came back better and went back to sleep (this was 5 AM in the morning) and then around 9, i woke up AGAIN and was sick AGAIN... and i'm like screw it, no more medicine (reached the day's limit) and started playing RO again ^^;;; RO = my solution to stomach aches.



it WAS my birthday... uh... 2 days ago, the third... went out to dinner w/ himura-san and shishio-san on friday, then another dinner with rwen and faith on saturday... and then we went to watch X2... it was... decently entertaining, like the first one... kinda long though. matrix reloaded preview came on and yukie sitting there: "ELROND!" ...... X2 comes on - magneto's cell, yukie *_*: "GANDALF!!" so uh yeah...
why am i not online? or if i am, always away? RAGNAROK ONLINE!!!!! i'm a mage i'm a mage!!! *dances* speaking of ragnarok, I am a guy mage... that's what i wanted to be... but when u open an account, they ask for ur gender, i wrote female, turns out that's the gender of your character... so - start over. next, i decided since i went through the training center once, i don't need to go through it again, and chose to start the game directly. the result -> they place you in a random town rather than let you pick. i ended up in the MERCHANT TOWN!!!!! >.< that's the last job i want to have, and it's like a million miles away from the mage town... ok, start over AGAIN and i'm finally a mage -_- i'm obsessed, you might not see me online for a long long time.



This has to be the most pathetic thing that happened, only now did I realize that I spelled lullaby wrong x.x;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; it's lullAby but i've been spelling it lulluby everywhere, on the site, the layout, the link etc... >.<;;; why didn't anyone correct me? yukie is a sound example of someone who never joined the school spelling bee in elementary school.



oh my god, new layout, I can go lay down and die now. this has to be the layout where I spent the LEAST time on image editting and the MOST time on coding... for blog at least. I totally redid the profile part and got rid of some useless stuff, it was a big too long before, I have to say.
Anyway, today was my last day of class, technically school ends tomorrow but i have no classes on fridays so today is really my last day already, though that doesn't make much of a difference since I rarely go to class anyway. I did go today however since we were getting review sheets for the final exam. it was soooo damn hot, the fact that I wore long sleeves was a mistake in itself. but just now it was raining and weather coolled down so beautifully. ahhh, the nice evening breeze... anyway, i'm turning 21 this saturday, so yes, you are coming with us and getting drunk.



derf -_- i am kinda depressed right now because a book I was reading ended depressingly. to know the future and everything that's going to happen but cannot change it? i can't accept that as the true answer.
i need a new blog layout for may... no idea yet, maybe i'll do something tonite. i have a new jnet layout made, will post it on saturday which is my bday. not really a self-present but some sort of significance i guess.

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Tenno Yukie is a 21 year old college junior who is an alumni of Stuyvesant HS in New York City and currently attending Cornell University. She is Asian, single, only child, plays the piano and sings occasionally while praying that she doesn't break any windows. She likes anime, manga, games, her website and is in love with her computer.

Currently listening to the Juuni Kokki soundtrack, playing WarCraft (while it crashes the comp), celebrating the end of school and loving the fact that her birthday = last day of school each year.

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